|Guy Philip Patterson|
05/24/2011 at 6:56AM
8 lbs 5 oz
At 4AM I finally got my epidural. Casey held me while I grunted through contractions and hoped the needle didn't accidentally paralyze me. Always a nerve wracking process. By 4:30AM I was feeling amazing. Pain free and numb. The doctor came in and broke my water and said that it would probably be a while before the labor because the epidural slows everything down. Around 5:30AM I was feeling a lot of pressure down south. I told the nurse who didn't believe me and said it was probably my catheter. Another nurse had come in to take over her shift and the new nurse checked me out. She instantly said, "Wow, looks like we are going to have a baby. You're dilated to a 10 and ready to go." I was so relieved. They let me labor down for another hour. I brushed out my hair and fixed my smeared mascara from the painful events of earlier that morning and got ready to welcome this baby into the world. At 6:30AM they were finishing setting everything up and the nurse had me do a test push. After one test push she immediately stopped me because she could already see his head. I pushed three more times and he was out. Pushing is the only thing I do well apparently.
As soon as he was out and placed in my arms, I just knew how much this baby was going to mean to me, to Casey, to Cash, and to our family unit. Casey and I were instantly emotional. It almost feels like an out of body experience. Watching the baby come out of you and then hearing him cry and holding him in your arms. It is so miraculous. It was love at first sight. The nurse cleaned him up on my stomach and we immediately had our golden hour. Just me, Casey, and our new little Guy. He was so little and soft all curled up on my chest. Casey and I were just mesmerized by him. Another sweet angel to join our family. What a blessing it is to be able to bring life into the world and be a steward over another child of God. He was just so beautiful. I could imagine him standing up in Heaven with my Mom and Dad while he waited to be sent down to us. They were probably the last angels he saw before he became our little baby. I felt like they were there watching over us. It was such a special moment.
|Grandpa and Grandma Patterson|
|Aunt Sarah and Aunt Erin|
|Great Grandma Apperson|
|Aunt Nikki Harris|
|Uncle Tim and Aunt Heather (cousins: Skylar, Kiki, Phoenix, Deveraux)|
I was anxious about how Cash was going to react when he first met Guy. He walked into the hospital room and was instantly happy to see Casey and I there. He was in Casey's arms within seconds. Then he wanted to get in the bed with me and drink my juice box. And finally he saw the baby. We let him hold the baby and he was really sweet. He kept saying OOoooh and baby. He even gave Guy a little kiss on the forehead. Then Guy started crying and Cash was really upset. He did not like his baby crying.
Casey's parents took Cash home with them for four days to give Casey and I some alone time with Guy. That was probably the best gift they could have ever given us. It was so relaxing to just cuddle with Guy and hang out with Casey. It was very peaceful and great bonding for us. Cash came home on Saturday and I was so happy to have him back. As quiet as our home has been, I missed him a lot. At first I was blown away about his size. I couldn't believe he was my baby before Guy came. I changed his diaper and it felt like I was changing a grown man. He seems like such a big kid now. He isn't my baby anymore. It was kind of a hard transition at first. I had to keep reminding myself that he is not even two yet when he acts up. He is pretty soft with Guy. He mostly just ignores him and then every once in a while he pets his head and says baby. He is only jealous when Casey holds Guy because that is his Daddy. But Mommy can be shared.
I love my little Guy so much. I swear I wish I could bottle his scent and keep it forever. He's just so yummy. I forgot how wonderful it feels to have a newborn sleep on your chest. Just a little nugget. I'm smitten with him. I love my boys and the daily joy they bring me.
|And now we are four.|